Mrs. M

My name is now the same last name of my spouse as I finally got my drivers license done. Everyone in the DMV kept congratulating me on my marriage so that was bittersweet. I knew that would happen so it is why I put it off for so long. I am glad I have Michaela’s last name, but sad she isn’t here for this.

I barely made it to the car after all the congratulations before tears hit. I am sure the people who parked next to me wondered what happened. I just sat there though and let the tears flow. 

After my driver’s license, I went to my bank to change my name on my accounts. The bank teller congratulated me and then she asked about my wedding. I told her the truth that I married my love of 17 years in a hospital room 2 days before she died. The teller started crying which of course made me cry.

Lots of change some with things that help me in my grief - having her name is so important to me now than it ever was before. Some things make me want to hide under the covers. This day did both to me.