Library

I haven’t been out of the house much this month. My grief and depression are playing off of each other. One of my coping mechanisms is reading. I read to escape my life. I read a ton of books to escape my pain. So today I got out of the house as my library card was about to expire and I check out books for my kindle via the library app.

Although I got out of the car and had to go in, I was barely dressed in “normal” clothes. I had taken a shower and brushed my teeth so yay me. I tugged on a sweatshirt, jeans, and slippers and went in to get my card updated. I updated it with my new last name. My married…now widowed name. So again another moment that just hits me - hits me as another thing changing.

I just get it done and rush home to open a new book and escape. Escape into pages of a James Patterson novel.