Cocoa Puffs

I have an empty box of Cocoa Puffs in the pantry. Every Monday night I look and try to decide if I can throw it out. Tuesday is trash day.

So why do I have an empty box in the pantry? At one point Michaela was taken off the chemo pill that messed with her taste and appetite. After, she had food requests. Cocoa Puffs were on that list. In her last week here, she had some. She had gone through almost all of the box at that point. I don’t like Cocoa Puffs, but one night in a moment needing to emotionally eat I had some. I ate what was left and was about to throw the box away and broke into big tears. So I put the box back into the pantry. Almost every week, I look at them, but just can’t bring myself to taking them out of the pantry. So an empty box sits there.