There are days…

It is a constant up and down, back and forth, pulled between all the emotional memories and the good things happening right now. One day I am crying ugly messy tears where I can’t get out of bed. Life seems like it can’t possibly have sunshine ever again. The next day I might be looking forward to a coffee with a friend, I might be smiling at the nice barista who told me he liked my hair, I might be have a conversation with someone who makes me laugh, or I might put on a new t-shirt that makes me smile. Sometimes all that happens in one day. Sometimes it is days of downs and just moments of ups or flipped.