Battle

My migraines have increased since M died which isn’t too surprising. I have had week long migraines many times over. Today I woke up feeling pretty good. I know today is 9 months since M died. Sometimes I think I stress so much about the date before it hits, that the the week ahead gives me more problems then the actual date. I still cry and feel sadness, but the migraine and darkness isn’t hanging over me. I don’t understand it, but that is what it feels like. Living without M is is a battle I fight every day.