It’s Officially the Holidays

Michaela always said it felt like the holidays when I started baking. Today I made peanut butter blossoms, and bars with macadamia nuts, white chocolate chips, and cranberries. I have sugar cookie dough in the fridge that I plan on rolling out tomorrow morning. Last year I didn’t bake at all. I cried when I started rolling the peanut butter cookies into balls to coat with sugar. I don’t know if this means I am going a step forward in my healing or if I am leaving her behind as sometimes doing these normal things I would have done before her death makes me feel like I am leaving her behind.