Facebook Fun or Not

There was one of those things on Facebook about who would you go on vacation with and it tags all the people that pop up first when you do the @.  This is the silly little thing that was floating around.

We’re on Vacation!!

My vacation buddy:

Snores every night and keeps everyone awake:

Spends every day at the Beach:

Drinks all the water:

Talks to everyone they meet as if they have known them their whole life:     

Gets arrested:

Breaks the karaoke machine:

Falls off a donkey:

Gets sunburned on the 1st day:

Won’t leave the ice cream shop:

Wins $500 on bingo:

Misses their flight:   

Steals all the beach toys:

Gets stung by a jellyfish:

Throws everyone’s towels in the water:   

Wakes everyone up @ 3am singing:

Comes in first in the talent show:   

Pours a huge bucket of ice water on everyone:

Cries like a baby when it’s time to leave:

If you want to play along..

1. Copy-paste and delete the names.

2. After each statement, type @

3. You'll see the name of one of your friends. Select the first one that comes up.

4. If one is already used, take the next one!

5. Don’t cheat.

Every time one of those comes up, M is always the first person that comes up. For this one she came up too, but I didn’t chose her name.

I had a whole meltdown associated with it. I just didn’t want people to see her name and feel sorry for me. Or think I am adding it because I can’t “let her go.”  I just had this moment of I don’t want to go with all the hugs in the comments. When I mention her, it is because I want to - because I will never let her go or forget her. She will always be a part of my life and that isn’t EVER going to change. So I don’t mention her for sympathy or pity. I mention her because she is mine and I am hers - even now.

Not choosing her name though really did a number in a different way because it made me worry I was letting her go.  Then I had the opposite worry that people will think I am letting her go because I didn’t mention her.

Fucking emotions just make things so complicated. Even more so with grief than any other type of emotional process in my life.