Today’s Moment

Everyday there are little moments which bring tears and heartache up. They are unexpected moments.

Today…

I have a migraine, but received a text notification that my groceries were ready to pick up. I totally had forgot about them so was glad for text.

First moment was I needed a hat to cover my bed head. I grabbed the first stocking cap available. The one I have sitting out where my love last left it. Her hat was made by a friend for her during treatments. I got a little choked up when pulled it on.

I pulled into the pick up area of the grocery store and just as the clerk came to my window, Let it Be by the Beatles came on. M loved that song and could sing it. Really sing it. As I was verifying my name tears started to come up. Luckily the clerk wasn’t looking at me, instead his little handheld device. As he loaded the car, more and more tears came. After he was done, I sat there a moment to collect myself, but I was still teary.

The song continued as I pulled out of the lot to head home and I started to cry harder. I have always loved that song. Long before meeting Michaela, I loved that song. I have record albums, but at the moment not record player. I received several gift certificates for Amazon over the holidays. I know what I am getting now. A record player because I have the Beatles Let it Be album. I want to hear it again and hear my beloved singing it.