I have a thing for dates. I remember my first big crush’s birthday to this day, I remember the date I left Ohio to move to Colorado, I remember the date of M’s first email to me,

I haven’t done a deep cleaning of my house in almost 2 years. I have been tackling areas now. It has felt good to clean some areas and make them look all sparkly.

Today I left the house in a rush. I had several errands before a doctors appointment. In my rush, I forgot my wedding rings.

Grief hits in these ways I never thought about. You think grief is just a general sadness of losing someone you love. Grief though comes in waves so strong they toss you in the ocean of feelings,

In June 2019, Michaela decided she wanted her ears pierced. It was an empowering moment for her as a transgender woman. We discussed that maybe it was something we could do together.

Art journaling my grief 

This photo on the left is me a couple days after my birthday in 2017. M and I saw that cup and she said I needed it.

Never know when things will remind me of Michaela. She sends me things to show me she is here with me.